A God intervention

I love to share stories of when I just know God was there.

Many know that we were in Hawaii when we found out Mark was passing away. I was able to make it home before he passed but it was tough for days in Hawaii

Last fall a group of us planned a trip to Hawaii for this spring. We were going to a different island as I knew I couldn’t go back to the same one. I also knew I wanted to go back as I love Hawaii and I wanted it to be a wonderful and safe place again. I knew Mark would want that too.

I had a lot of anxiety about going back but I worked hard to get through that. Very hard. Lots of talking to others, praying and tons of support. After a few months I felt I was ready to go back and I was excited.

Then, one member of our group cancelled. Then another. Then another. Then it was too much and we all cancelled. I was devastated. This was my chance to redeem Hawaii and it was taken away. Hannah was disappointed too but she admitted she was a bit relieved as she was worried about the emotions that would come back.

Then a friend reached out who knew I was really disappointed and said she would go with us. I was happy again. We found an excellent deal and I booked plane tickets the day after Mark’s birthday. I thought it was a gift from him.

But then Hannah started becoming distant. She was crying all the time. I got a call from the school because she had ran out of music class because they played a song that reminded her of her dad. This wasn’t like her. She got through Mark’s birthday fine. It hit me that it might be the Hawaii trip so I told her therapist we might need to work on that as the trip got closer.

Then a week after we booked we got an email that the plane tickets were cancelled. No reason. Just ”unable to be booked”.

My friend wanted to rebook. I said no. We weren’t going. We needed to take this as a message from God.

I thought we needed more time. I thought I was ready but looking back I think we both needed some time. I knew there was a reason it didn’t work out.

I found out the reason

Had we gone to Hawaii when we had planned, we would have found out about another devastating loss while we were in Hawaii. It would have been another days before we could get home and home to support and love. I honestly think if we would have been in Hawaii again and found out about another loss, it would have destroyed us. It would have been far too much.

God protected us. I like to think Mark had some plan in it too 🙂. We’ve never had where a plane will take your money only to say “sorry, we just can’t take it” with no explanation.

Thank you God for always being there for us. Making sure we are protected and okay. Thanks for watching over my baby girl.